Keep Em Guessing....Oh Jude

I make shit sparkle. I bring smiles. I mediate. I negotiate. I entertain. I perform. I dance. I drink. I care. I work. I love. I sparkle.

So, another decade. That's exciting. More of the same, or should I change it up a bit? What really happens when we buck the system? Who exactly gets knocked off balance? Running from the past or running towards the future? Surviving or living? Clean conscious or clear complexion? Keeping up or making up? Unspoken competition or mental disillusion? Holding my tongue but sticking out my neck? Beautifully tragic or handsomely disastrous? Creating rules to break them or setting standards to make them? What's my motivation? What's my character? What's my role? What script are we reading off of? How much could possibly happen in ten years.....


I saw the Sherlock Holmes movie, best film I've seen in years. Years.
I survived the holidays.
And all that came with them.

Worked 6 AM to 10 AM today. Came home and slept for another hour or so. Then cleaned the house for two hours or so. Did laundry. Scrubbed the bathroom floor. Scrubbed the sink. The shower walls, doors, floors and faucets. Windows. Sweeping. Dusting. Wiping. Cleaning. Thinking.

When I clean house, I like to pretend I don't live there. I'm just part of a hired cleaning service, and I can distance myself from the mess and chaos and dirt I'm taking care of. If I distance myself, I can judge and make comments inside my head. When I'm detached, I clean better. If it's not a mess I know, then I can clean it all up. I would never have dirty bathroom floors. I would never leave the counter so scattered. I would never allow things to get so out of hand. No matter what, it always looks better once I'm finished.

I'll see Sherlock Holmes again, it's that good.

And, I'll see about this next decade thing. Everyone's saying it's a big deal. Hmmmm

“My only obligation is to keep myself and other people guessing.” -J. Law