There is one thing to be said for being tired all the time: you're uninhibited. You say things you wouldn't have said had you got enough sleep. You take action in ways you wouldn't if you had the rational thinking rest provides. And you wouldn't be bold enough to talk to people who otherwise would have intimidated the shit out of you. Being exhausted can be freeing. The brief moments where I was once unafraid of repercussion when I was fully rested, now happen all the time. My brain is too tired to filter what I'm doing. It's two thirty am, I have to be out the door at seven. When I crawl out of bed I will have a thirteen hour day to look forward to. But hey, what do I care? I don't even get a moments pause to think about it all. If things start going bad, I'll just lean over and make a new friend. I'm learning that it's not that hard. Apparently all you have to be is tired.
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