Dirty You Up

If ever there was a paradox, that I have displayed if a snapshot had been taken, it would be myself on my knees scrubbing the floor of my bedroom in my work clothes. Black chunky boots. Ripped jeans. Black and white layers topped off with a hoodie and my leather jacket. With Gaga in my ears, my sleeves pushed up and rag and windex in hand, I made my life shine. Or at least I made my floors shine. Once I had taken care of my room, I moved to the kitchen. The whole instant motivation behind it all was the fact that I had to leave work early. I left at 4AM instead of 7 because they didn't want to give me overtime. So when I got home I was still wired, and being at home and having energy almost never occur these vampire days. So I went to town. I made shit sparkle. Then I capped it all off by writing a group email to all the housemates explaining how we all have to step up our cleaning duties. The response has been mostly positive, but I'm curious to see how it plays out in the long run. I'm still thinking I might have to kick some ass to get through to some people. But I'll throw that punch when I have to. In other news. The parentals are visiting in about six hours, and I'm wide awake right now. How awake I am when they are here, is yet to be seen. I want to have a nice time and all, but I'm a complete ass when not caffeinated. I might have to insist on a Bux run. Not to mention my less then squeaky clean language. My dirty word filter isn't functional at all when I'm tired. I find myself these days wanting nothing but my leather jacket and everything it symbolizes. Living the vampire, 3rd shift lifestyle kinda dirties you up a bit. And I am liking it. I was always more nocturnal anyways, and this just emphasizes it. Moonlight, streetlights, neon lights, Marlboro lights. I wish more and more that this city didn't close up at 2am. I fear more and more having to go back to being a day creature. I miss my people, but not all the other humans. Driving on roads with other cars on them, having to deal with customers, standing in lines; oh hell no. I'm finally getting into the sleep cycle too. It's going to rough when I have to reconvert. Someone reach for the Clorox, maybe we can just bleach me back to sunshine living. Or SOS pad me until I quit sending out SOS messages. Jumping from dirty night shift back to sparkling day shift will be hazardous to those around me. I can see it now. Once again, I'll throw that punch when I get there. It's funny to me though, I make little mental lists about how much I've changed and come into my own. How the things I use to worry about and fill up on don't really matter so much to me, and bigger more serious things now take up my brain. Table settings and matching polos with matching Northface jackets have been replaced with affordable boots and cheap cereal. The older I get, the more dirtied I become. The world isn't a clean place, you have to endure some scuff marks and get your polish knocked off before you can even begin to grasp the situation you are in. It's a little difficult to keep yourself sparkly, good thing my wood floors are.

ps- and since EVERYONE is talking about it, yes, I did see the "telephone" music video. yes, it is amazing. yes, Gaga should rule the world. yes, I watched it repeated times. I would just like to add that, I think everyone loves Gaga because she's living all our dreams. All at once. Plus she is legit talented. She deserves the accolades.

"I believe in getting into hot water...it helps keep you clean" -G.K. Chesterton